In transit

A fellow blogger once wrote,

"Maybe God gave us a 'ticket' to find your soulmate. Some of us go to a land called commitment by plane. Direct flight. Some of us are stuck in transit just waiting to arrive at terminal soulmate"

It looks like I am that someone stuck in transit. Not knowing which way to go. It's hard to go through especially where there's nothing wrong with the relationship. No dent nor scratch.

Do long distance relationships ever work? We both feel that if we are willing to put extra work in it nothing is impossible. Giving the fact that we both are old enough to know what comitment means.

But I'm scared. Scared of the possibility that it will end because of the outside factors. When you are away from each other, you're at your own world and go through life alone. And pretty soon you'll forget the other person.. bit by bit. Whether you want to or not.

I hope that's not the case with me and him. We've worked so hard for it. It would be totally stupid to just throw it all away. But time will tell, whether we'll make it or not.

I hate waiting. But I guess some things are just worth waiting for.....

I hate work

It's Saturday. Something about today that makes it feel like it's Monday.

I feel bleah.

Managed to wake myself up at 1 P.M after an interrupted sleep. I just feel so annoyed this whole week. I feel like my bubble has been burst by an unwanted person. I don't know how Hollywood stars can handle having stalkers everyday.

I feel uncomfortable at my work place-a place dominated by mostly men. There are only 4 women there. And they stare.

I feel dirty. I feel dirty because I don't know what's running through their minds.

Worst yet, when this one particular guy made unnecessary gestures. Like followed me wherever I go, watch my every mood (like when I put eye drop b/c my contacts are drying out...and he stupidly said, "are you crying?" No dummo!!!!).....

and made stupid comments like, "We should go to Cancun, Mexico. I'll pay your plane ticket."
OK.. First of all, I can afford to buy a plane ticket myself. Why would I want this dude who I only know for 2 days to buy me one? Second of all, I am happily taken, thank you very much.

I don't get it. I tried every way to send the message that I am annoyed and would like to be left alone. I ignore him, I walk away. I even said the term" MY BOYFRIEND" over and over, like in every sentence...that dude doesn't quite get it. Is it maybe he doesn't know English very well? But who is it to blame? I mean... like last Wednesday, I told my boyfriend to come in just to "flag" me you know...even THAT doesn't work. Because yesterday, that dude asked for my phone number.

I understand IF my bf is shorter than me, skinnier than me and that dude keeps on pursuing me because he doesn't feel threatened. But my bf is like 6'4" weighing 280 pounds!!! He is practically 2 or 3 times bigger than a normal guy. Is that amigo blind or something? Jeez....

Oh.. and wuz up with all of these stupid nonsense questions like:

"Do you like corn tortilla?" "Do you like soccer?" 'Do you like Pepsi?" "Do you like guacomole?" Do you like baseball?" "You know Dina Santos?"

WHADDAFUCK!!!! Go F yourself amigo!!! You're lucky you didn't get shot when you cross the Mexican border.

Damn it!!! I have to see that dude on Monday and every single day after that. Man... I'm serious. If he starts to sexually harrasing me, I'm gonna report it to the police.

I'm so stressed out now :'(

KEDS...ANYONE?????

OMG.... I am in love...with keds shoes!!!!

2 days ago bf was like, "My sisters want Mischa Barton shoes." I was like, "Those are keds... are they even cute?"

So I checked online.

Holly molly...they are gorgeous flats. They went above and beyond to design cute comfy flats...with colors and ribbons. No more regular white keds with shoe laces. Ohhhh so cute !!!!*drooling*

So I quickly talked to one of his sisters online. I was like, "OMG... keds are so cute!!" She was like, "I know... I want like 3 pairs!!!...."


I want 10 pairs!!!!! ...in different styles and colors...but don't tell anyone that. :P

I love flat shoes b/c my feet can't deal with high heels any more. They're so painful to wear and I get blisters everytime...plusss they just won't stop making those shoes with narrow toes...hmmm... major no no for me.. I don't like my toes to be squished, thank you very much.

Gosh... I just need to stop shopping.... PERIOD!!!

Transformation

I am currently undergoing a major transformation in my life ;D

I decided to cut my long hair. The idea came out of the blue. I guess I am just carrying 2 lbs worth of hair on my head. I looked like a poodle in every picture and I was so darn sick of pony tails, enough with 1 hour blow drying my hair, so done with hair on my face everytime the wind blew... enough enough enough!!!!

So one day I was telling my sister about my hair dilema. She was like, "Let me cut your hair!!" I was like, "Ugh.... really??? You can cut hair?" She was like, "Yeah...I watch mom cut hair all the time." So I thought what the heck...why not. Hair grows back right??? It's not like it's the first time taking a drastic hair change. Puhleazee...

It was 1:00 in the morning and we were tip toeing in the kitchen. Stole mom's hair scissors and other gadgets.

I got to say that I was kinda nervous but I tried not to show it because I didn't want to make her nervous and cut my hair the wrong way. I held my breath the whole time she was cutting my hair... welll took a deep breath here and there after she was done with one section.

My dad walked in the kitchen and he was like, "What the hell are you guys doing!!!!" hehehehe... he seemed surprised and terrified. His face was so funny lookin'... He marched to the living room and yelled, "Buuuuu..... anakmu itu loh...potong potongan rambut di dapur!!!" Me and my sister were laughing so hard. My dad kept on walking back and forth pretending like he needed something from the refrigerator. I guess he was checking just to make sure I didn't shave my head bald..hahahaha...I know what my dad was thinking... I am known in my family as the crazy hair one. Man.. when I was in High School I did all kinda experiments with my hair. I dyed it purple, red and even bleached it blonde...the hair length went from super long to super short...with bangs to no bangs. I kinda stopped dealing with hair when I got to college....but I guess the "disease" came back...wakakakaka....

So chopy chop she went and boom bah...all my hair fell on the floor. Funny that all of the sudden my head felt light. I could feel the breeze on my neck. My sis gave me some bangs and layer the back and the sides to frame my round face....ooohhh.....she's so professional..maybe I should tip her...hehehe

I woke up feeling super sexy the next morning. My BF super loved it. He was like..."Oooohhhh.... you look so hot and so refresed. You look younger!!" Super duper happy....A lot of people told me that I could pass as a 18 year old girl. Yeah..right!!!! Me love my sis. It's so good to have a personal hairstylist.

Actually I have 2 hair stylists.

I forgot to tell you that my mom is a certified hair stylist. She does hair for a living

Annnd... I'm gonna ask her to color and highlight my hair. *evil laugh*

Ahh... sweet loving summer :D

;'(

Currently Listening to: Unbreak My Heart by Tony Braxton

Question:

Should I be mad if my bf's ex is still checking up on him, msn him, and emailing him?


Call me selfish but I want her to leave us alone.

Please.

Pretty please.


With a cherry on top. *_*'


Me so sad now. I want some ice cream...

P.S: Today is 6-6-06...the day of the devil. And the "devil" is attacking once more. Coincidence? I think not.

Th only good thing about today is that I got to eat dimsum and buffet..plusss Bath & Body Works is having a semi annual sale. :D

Movie Night

My eyes are so damn tired from watching 2 movies in a row ;'(

The first movie we saw was "The Break Up." I'll give it 4 stars out of 5 just because I don't like the ending. Not a big fan of non happy ending. I just think every movie has AND need to have a happy ending or it would just be one pointless, waste of time movie. Anyway.... it's nice to see Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn together. They're hilarious. Forget about Brangelina. I am getting sick of seeing them all over the news.

The second movie we saw was "The Da Vinci Code." Call me ignorant but I just don't get the whole story. I thought the story of Jesus is supposed to be what it's supposed to be...but this movie is just pushing it and I just don't like it at all. I just think there are some divine secret out there that's just better left alone....like do not question Is Jesus God? or Is Jesus the son of God? Oh..and the story about Mary Magdalen is just confusing me even more. I thought Mary gave birth to Jesus... yessss..forgive me for never actually set foot in any Sunday school or never actually read the Bible.


Here are some movies that I can't wait to see:

• X-Men 3
• Lady in the Water
• The Omen
• Superman Returns
• The Devil Wears Prada
• Step Up (Starring none other than my future husband: Channing Tatum!!!) :P

Gotta get some shut eye. Toolioo!!!

Males and their hormones

Currently Listening to: Whenever You Call by Mariah Carey and Brian McKnight

Ok...I got this thought when I was hanging out with some guys on my trip to Wisconsin.

Little did I know that guys will never be content with what they have. That they feel the grass is always be greener on the other side. It doesn't matter if they guy is happily taken..they will, whether you ladies want it or not, stare at other girls. They go gaga over girls wearing tank top, short short and high heels. for asian guys...as long as the girl is skinny with long silky hair...they'll stare and drool... no matter if she's pretty or not.

WHY GOD WHY!!!! *tears*


As of me.... I don't look around. I am one faithful lady.

Errr....





I take that back.... will definitely look at him. I HEART CHANNING TATUM.SLURRRPPP!!!

But realistically speaking....girls are smarter than guys because well..me for instance... I always feel guilty if I stare at some dude at the mall. Usually I only check out their clothes. That's it!!! But this thing called emotional relationship goes beyond physical. Seriously... beauty is only skin deep. I always remind myself that I have a happy healthy relationship..that my bf is a good loving guy. And I am happy with that.

SIGH....
Now why can't guys do the same????

About iPod

Currently Listening to: my iPod..hehehe

My iPod nano is my new bestfriend. It's small, it's portable. I sleep with it, I run with it, I lift weight with it, I cry with it. It's pretty much with me every where I go. I love it with all my heart.

Well...except the fact that I am si Gaptek.

I don't know how to read instructions. I mean... who reads instruction booklet??????????

So all this time I have been wasting 1 hr of putting songs into my iPod. I was so jealous of those "drag and drop" people. Yeah... my iPod doesn't do that. So I have to upload all of the song and go to File and press the "update ipod" so there goes my iPod repeating all of the song..from old to new.

STOOOOOPIDDDD....

So finally I had to stop all of these madness. I marched my feet down to the Apple store.

The dude said," Whoever sold you this iPod is so mean for not telling you to upload the song 'manually'"

MANUALLY dummo.... *knocking my own head*

So all this time I have been doing it AUTOMATICALLY

Manual=Drag and drop!!!!!!!!!!!

The sun comes out again.

And I love my iPod even more.

see... love grows..hehehe