Wheeeeee ^_^'

Currently Listening to: Amber by 311

Me so tired. Body aching. I've been working for 6 days straight. Very little sleep.

Soooo looking forward to this weekend.

Waking up to the beautiful sight of sunrise. Jogging along the "beach." Playing sand volleyball. Jet Skiing. SHOPPING!!!! I'm smiling ear to ear ;D

Tottliooooo.....

Hasta la Vista babayyyyyy!!!

Sappy Me ;'(

Currently Listening to: Sekali Ini Saja by Glenn Fredly


Hari ini aku sendu...

The bad thing about being abroad is the lack of knowledge of Indo Songs. Jadiiiii.... Alhamdulillah ada YouTube YOU ROCK!!!! I just type in the word "indo" and all these songs come out. Sometimes when I am alone in my room, I listen to these sappy songs and watch the videos...and I actually cry. Yes... tears coming out of my eyes. Cengeng...

I think Glenn Fredly has a super great voice. I got chills just listening to him sing. Why does he look Mexican? and somehow his face seems so familiar to me.hmm...

So yeah.. youtube connects me to the world. hehehehe. kan malu dikirimin lagu terus sama temen Indo (paging Iren hehehe) andddd... when the indo kids here talk about Indo artists I don't have a clue what they're talking about. Now I do!!!! Gosh.. I am such a dork.

Oh..am I imagining things here? I think Siti Nurhaliza kinda looks like Rossa. Maybe the make up..I notice both of them have the same facial features. Dont hold me accountable though, I am bad at comparing people.

Why am I so sappy today?

It might be the fact that it's dark outside (it's night time) or maybe it's raining (not really). Ahh... it might be PMS. Damn.

But seriously..I listened to Marcell while doing homework awhile ago and I had to dry out my books cuz they were flooded with my tears.

Only Indo songs, peeps. Only Indo songs. Lagu bule nggak begitu sendu..well, maybe Toni Braxton's "Unbreak My Heart"

Maybe I am just in love. Wheeee..... :D Almost three years and I still have the same butterfly feelings in my stomach. I love Mr. Doofus!!!

{"Cinta Sejati Datang Hanya Satu Kali" }

About Friendship

Currently Listening to: Hips Don't Lie by Shakira

I consider myself UNLUCKY in this Friendship category. I think I am just doomed in that department.

Maybe I just high expectations. I don't know. But I am for sure so sick and tired of watching the world goes upside down. People are supposed to turn for the better not for the worst. I guess that's a so called LIFE. LIFE IS HARD, GET A HELMET.

I wanna be like Rachel and Phoebe and Monica. It's just nice to have that close knit friends to be there with you every step of the way, every milestone of your life. Or.... it's just nice to drink coffee with them at a coffee shop. Or..just going through this so called life together.

When I was in high school, I got plenty of friends. I went to a small high school so everyone knows each other and the baggage that comes with them..down to the detail of each other's personal life (not good ..eeekkk). But then again, I lost almost all of my friends when we got to college because of sooo many different reasons. I guess we just went our own separate ways.

My bf and I had a conversation about friendship the other day. We discussed the fact that friendship does make a huge impact in both of our lives. And... we also look inward into ourselves on our relationships with our friends here. We found out through our discussion that people may behave in a certain way because of the change of environment..cieeehhhhh. But seriously. It is soooo hard to understand these people. I mean not all of them are weird but some are just over the top messed up! and for us, as much as we would like to accept them for who they are, it's just plain hard to do because they're just not being themselves. For instance, just like what I said in my previous post, watching these people turn from nonsmokers to die hard smokers, from non drinker religious people to alcoholics, to clubbers, and most importantly leading a reckless life. Yes...they do exist here. Is freedom a factor here? I mean....this might be a one time chance that they get to go crazy because they are away from their family or something. Or maybe I am just a plain old fashioned gal. But then again, who am I to judge?

SIGH

So bottom line here.... I think finding a friend who shares the same value of life is very important. For me, loyalty is highly valuable. Since finding good true friends is difficult makes me value the ones who have been with me all through these years... no matter how many seas, mountains and lands apart we are.

To my girl, you know who you are. Congratulations on your new chapter in life.


{"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."}

Me Myself and I

Currently Listening to: Strange & Beautiful by Aqualung

*I stole this from Izan ;)

My ex is the past that I don't wanna talk about

Maybe I should clean my room. It looks like bachelorette pad gone bad

I love it when he cooks for me. He's so creative. He can cook anything.

I dont understand why American Idol this year is so boring. Not to mention that they can't sing.

I lose my temper easily when people cut me off on the road. Don't mess with me when I'm driving..hehehe

People say Im opinionated and sexy ( okay I made that one up ;P)

Love is like chocolate. It makes you feel good and gives you butterflies in your stomach.

Somewhere, someone is thinking about naming their daughter "qt pie" hehehehe...

I will always be 5'3". I am a fire cracker. I am short, stout and loud (....eh..isn't that a teapot?) .

Forever is everything I hope it would be in my relationship.

I never want to have breast implants. It looks like it hurts. ...ouchh

I think the current US President doesn't know what he's talking about. He always has that question mark look on his face...hmppphh..

When I wake up in the morning, I turn off the alarm clock and go right back to sleep.

My past was what got me to where I am today.

Parties are fun with the right people and the right food. Bring in the chicken wings!!!! Good food, good people, good time ;)

My dog is going to smell extra nice...if I ever had one, but I don't.

My cat is ..yeah...don't have a cat either. I don't like anything with a tail.

Kisses are the best when hehehehehehe...I don't kiss and tell ;P

Tomorrow, I'm gonna wake up early and enjoy the day because I am off work tomorrow. yeay!!!!

I really want to lose weight.....and be able to fit into my old jeans.

I have low tolerance for ignorant people. I think people should be genuinely nice and sincere. But not a lot of people use their heart nowadays.

Okay I am done.

Holla back at me people. Yeah... I am talking to you. Come on, don't be shy. I know you're reading this :0)

R.A.N.D.O.M

Currently Listening to : Where'd You Go by Fort Minor

This is gonna be a totally random entry, just bear with me. I have to get this unnecessary stuff out of my head before I go to sleep.

BTW, love the song I mentioned above. It's a mixture of the young Enya with rap..coolio.

Blogging is very addictive, don't you think? I looovvveee blog hopping, reading random people's blogs. Gosh, it's so amazing to take a peek at people's lives. It actually makes me feel blessed with what I have. Alhamdullilah.

Mommy wants us to go to the Lake of the Ozarks by the end of this month for the weekend. But don't know if I can get off work. Starting next week, I'll be working more than 40hrs per week because one of the lady quit. Oh man, I am so looking forward to being tired. Bleah. Anywho, I am looking forward to the family trip b/c we have an addition a.k.a sis' bf...hehehehe... Like always, I am in charge of booking the condo. Why does the price has to be sky high? I probably have to bid online.

Me and bf was going over the cost of our Wisconsin trip the end of May yesterday and we nearly fainted. Flight tickets, hotel, van rental, food, etc. Watching bf plays basketball and win MVP=priceless ;P I guess the paycheck from work is gonna go to that trip. I AM BROKE.

Pink is famous again nowadays. I was watching OPRAH today and saw her talking about her "Stupid Girls" video. She's right though, we got wayyy to many dumb blondes over here. My bf told me when he went to Hooters to get my chicken wings (hehehe...) he saw this sign by the cash register: "Wait for 5 minutes..Blondes still thinking." hahahaha...I notice that during the winter time, I don't see that many blondes but by spring break..they're blooming!!!! but you know, not all blondes are or act stupid. Kelly Clarkson!!!

Another thing I am addicted to is Friendster (don't we all). It's boring sometimes cuz there's not much to do there, you know, besides the usual checking out people's pictures and stuff. It's always fun to reconnect with old friends. Bless Friendster.

Is it me or people here have identity crisis? They landed to the USA and started smokin' and drinkin' and partyin'. Shame on them. Listen to what yo momma told you. Fool! That's sad. I mean they arrived all innocent and when they live here for a week they go crazy. Culture shock. Just chill, dude ( and dudettes). No need to show people that you're cool and shit. Damn ghetto Asians.

Okay....I feel better now. Sorry about the breakdown. Told ya it was gonna be random.

Hmmm...this ice chocolate mik is soo good. Me love chocolate milk.

Qt Pie out!

Busch Stadium Open House Tour

Whatta great day I had today!! I got to go to the brand spankin' new home of the St. Louis Cardinals baseball team. We, St. Louisans, have been waiting for this day to come after they tore down the old Busch Stadium last year (STL is a crazy baseball town). They built the stadium overlooking the St. Louis downtown Arch and Court House. LOOOOOOVVVEEEE ITTTT!!! From the moment I walked in I could smell the new cement. Lotsa concession stands (gotta love baseball food). Oh...and padded seats instead of the old plastic chair that didn't do your butt justice ;(

I went there with my bf, my sis and her bf, and 1 couple and 1 not couple but wanna be couple..teheeeee ;P

We had to take the metro link because downtown parking is hella expensive (we're cheap like that ;P) The metro link was soo packed with Cards fans.... all red and white. Gotta love the spirit, man. After we arrived, we took pictures in front of the stadium. Then we got in line for ticket validation and bag check(ughhh) and we quickly went to the reserved seatings by the dugout..and guess what? we took more pictures there. We can't help it because one, we're Indonesians with FS accounts ;P and two, the place is just so beautiful!!!! After we took pictures we walked around to look for the famous philly cheese steak.... we passed by this hotdog stand and we just stood there and stared at the yummy food. They grilled the hotdog with onions... from far away it smelled like bakso..so we screamed bakso!!! bakso!!! (kampungan euy ...hehehehehe)...Then we went to the VIP lounge where the have the best view of the game and yummy first class food. Again, we didn't buy food there because it was wayyy over our budget. Like they had chicken parmessan for 10 bucks per plate and other stuff for more. Anyway..we were there to take some more pictures and touch the furnitures because it was once in a life time kinda thing...and also because we are not VIP material..we can only afford the top bleachers (we suck!!!).

We went all the top floor to look for philly cheese steak but they were nowhere to be found. The weather was sooo cold and we were just bunch of hungry kids but we would NOT settle for anything less than the famous philly cheese steak. And then we found out from the brochure that Busch Stadium no longer serves philly cheese steak. BOOOOOOOOO!!!! Why God, Why???? With heavy heart we left the stadium without Phil the philly cheese steak in our hands *tears*

Next destination: Old Spaghetti Factory.

We jumped on the train to the restaurant. But once we got there we saw a bunch of Cards fans waiting to be seated. The wait list was 2 hours long. The guys was pissed!!! the girls was just in pain with headache cuz we hungry. So we decided to go back to the train station to get our car.

And.... after the whole year of waiting to taste Phil the philly cheese steak, we had to settle for Applebees... DOUBLE BOOOOOOO!!! But we were hungry and cold..and we had to eat so why not....

But our pain didn't stop there.

The hostess made us wait 30 minutes for our table. Damn her!!! Well..well... we finished our food in 15 minutes. I think we were so hungry that we INHALE the food. kekekekkeke....

Overall, it was a great experience for me. I had sooo much fun! My bf and I will be watching the Cards game next Sunday on the top seats ready with our binoculars and hotdog in one had and rootbeer float on the other.

I CAN'T WAIT!!!

Sleepy head

Lately, I have been falling asleep everywhere I go. SIGH ;(

Lesse... I go to bed at 10. Usually struggle to wake up at 5:50... fall asleep anywhere during the day. What is wrong with MEEEEE?

Yeah..maybe I shouldn't complain, because I know there are lotsa people out there with insomnia.

I am not complaining about the sleep itself.

It's just that recently the dreams that I have been having are stooooopiddd, scary, and sad dreams.

For instance, at night, I always dream about getting trapped at this strangers' house getting beat up by a stranger...and I would always got up gasping for air. WTF!!! or.... I get trapped inside an abandoned hospital surrounded by dead people going up and down the scary elevator looking for a way out.

But when I fall asleep during the day, I dream about the reality..which is the feeling of regret of my decisions of going home and missing my family in the states..and I would wake up cryin'.

But last night, I dreamt of holding a cute baby boy. What the hell? Whose baby was that, I don't know. I woke up feeling confused. *_*'

*DOUBLE SIGH*

And... I remember what caused me to fall asleep so easily (and have all these bad dreams): YoGa .

YOGA TURNS OUT TO HAVE A GREAT STRANGE EFFECT ON ME. Weird.

Blame it on my yoga istructor who plays Enya CD *Oahmmmmmm*....oh.. and I almost fall asleep on my yoga mat during the downward doggie style (whatever they call it). Shame on her!!!* tck tck...*

Namaste.

Decisions...decisions...

Should I stay or should I go?

I am in total dilemma. No, not a big pimple on my face. I am not that shallow ;P SIGH....
There's a 90 % chance that I have to go home ;'(

I don't know if going home is a good idea. Or is it?

Gosh, I was soooo mad when I found out that my visa cannot be extended. Mad like a crazy person. And then I got scared.. what if I have to go home? I haven't been home since I was 13 years old. I know a lot has change since then. This is my home, pretty much. My comfort zone. If I go back to Indo, I would have to make lots of adjustments. Well, one language... I still speak Indonesian, mind you... but all of these slangs I don't know about (malu..hihihi). Second of all, the weather... I am gonna miss winter, the snow, the feeling and everything. Gonna miss wearing a sweater, my peacoat, scarf and gloves. *ihix* I'm gonna miss going to Walgreens in 5 minutes instead of getting stuck in traffic for hours. Definitely gonna miss my family and my mom's cooking. *tears*

But the more I think, the more I understand that I have to get out of my bubble and spread my wings (cieehhh). I mean, I can't stay with my parents for the rest of my life. Pretty soon I am gonna have my own family (whenever that might be). Going back home means that I have to be a brave girl and getting to know myself a bit more, learn to take care of myself. Going back home means I have to get a job, get stuck in traffic, use internet dial up (booo....me love fast connection of internet). I HAVE TO GET A JOB!!!! Don't know what yet.. don't even bother to look for it yet.

On the bright side, Going back home means that I can visit Malaysia anytime I want..be closer to him. Exciting...ooohhh...and I get to be skinny again.

Skinny... hmpppphh.. I am still working on it ;P

But I am starting to question what I want. Gosh I am such a baby. Last month on my birthday, my family threw me a big birthday bash for me... lotsa hugs and kisses, waayyy over the top presents..as if it was the last birthday that they get to spend with me. So sad. I cried. I'm gonna miss them soooo much.

I have to make a decision as soon as next month.

I am excited to move forward with my life. But why is it so hard?

Brand New

Hi hi....

Welcome..to my not so new blog ;)

I actually had one blog that I wrote religiously but sadly I had to delete it. After so many years of writing, it had to go bye bye *tears* I didn't get a chance to save my entries because I deleted it out of impulse. I was mad at the time..I went coo coo.

You see, when you have a blog such as this one here, you open the door of your life to strangers. If they're nice, they'll embrace your life and your thoughts. Because that's what blog is. It's a public diary without that little locket thingy. But when you meet weirdos and read your life, they become soo nosy and start to look at your life from a binocular and start to pick on your weaknesses. waaaaaa....... why do people have to be mean? *cry me a river*

So, why did I decided to write another blog?

It's Irena's fault !!!!(dadah dadah ..hehehe...). reading her blog made me want to write again.

Also I think writing is fun *dorky mode on* hehehe... but this time, I won't be tooo revealing about my life ( puh leazeee...my life is not THAT interesting anyway..it's not like I am Angelina Jolie ).

I am soo excited!!!!

So welcome..welcome....

Kick off your shoes..take a deep breath.... and..do whatever you please ;P

P.S- If you're mean, I'll pinch your nose ;P