Madison Trip

Currently Listening to: Gray Sky Morning by Vertical Horizon


This post is long overdue.

I got back from the Malaysian Midwest Games on Monday. Man oh man, the muscle aches last the whole week. I've been sleeping like a baby more than 12 hrs a day. Not nice considering that I am a lady *ehem..*

I was soooo in need of a road trip. Phhhewww.

I am so glad that I made new friends. Those people I met over there are very nice to talk to. A breath of fresh air. This year was my second year going to the Midwest Games. The difference between this year and last is that we won 1st place!!!!! My bf and his buddies beat those mofos from other universities. Yeah...woooot wooot. And .... to top it off... my babaayyyy won MVP.

To tell you the truth, I was kinda scared being the only supporter for our team. Well, it was me and Fyfy. Man..check out the Nebraska team. They had water girls, gatorade girls, towel girls, mop girls. Shoooot. We had to make it clear to our team. "This team is a self service team, mmmkay!!!" hehehe... We went against the undefeated team of all time. But this time we were so strong because the guys practiced like day and night. Go Missou...ri!!! Hu rarara!!

The first day, we had 4 games. We won all of them so we got to go to the final round the next day. But all of those happiness had to change cuz my bf lost his wallet and cellphone. Talk about an all time stress. We had to file a police report, canceled his credit card, suspended his cell phone. I felt like I was about to puke because I was so mad. How could someone took his stuff. How mean!!! Aaaaargh. Lets just say the aura that night was not pleasant. He took his anger to basketball court. He said, "alright guys, I didn't lose my wallet and cell for nothing." It worked!!! He scored lotsa points on the final game against WMU. Whooooottttt!!!!

That night we went to the closing ceremony. I felt like I was somewhere in Indo...mm.. more like in Padang because of the way the Malaysian people speak you know. reminded me of the movie datuk maringgih..hehehe... berpantun ria!!! I had lotsa fun there learning about their culture. The dances are pretty much the same. They have a dance just like Saman but they call it Dikir Barat. Good experience. I felt so proud of the team when they went up on stage to receive their gold medal.

Oh... bf found the wallet and cell the next morning before we left for home. Guess where he found them? The front desk of the hotel. BF went outside to smoke and the attendant recognized him from the ID. It turned out that the stuff fell out of his unzipped bag and luckily a guest found them and returned them to the front desk. Knuckle head.

Life is pretty boring once I landed in STL. Back to reality...Ooops there goes gravity ...*eminem mode*

Summer here I come. Bring the fun people right over!!!!!!!

sister from another mother

Currently Listening to : Everytime by Janet Jackson

I believe that somewhere out there there's at least a person who looks like me complete with the personality. Yup.. You know why? I have been seeing people who look alike other people who I know. My Body Pump instructor looks like Nia Vardalos from My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I swear to God!!! Well... except she's buff and blonde..but still. I find it really creepy. I talk to strangers whenever I get a chance because where I work I get to meet all type of people: weirdos, weirdos and weirdos. .....throw in some nice pleasant ones once in awhile. I saw this girl who looks like Natalie Portman..but with wavy hair, the guy who looks like Tom Welling in Smallville but shorter..the list goes on and on. Often I find myself thinking, "Hmmm.... I felt like I've seen person somewhere." That's just the face though. Imagine if they have similar face with similar personality. Weird....

But you know, you'll never know what's going on in this world. So many mysteries.

GOT TO KICK THIS LAZY SELF.

So many emails gone unanswered. So many call left unreturned. So many sms got neglected. What is wrong with me?..me knuckle head. My dad's birthday is on Thursday and I haven't gotten a chance to get him anything. It's so hard buying stuff for parents because I never know what they want..or if I knew what they want, it's usually hella expensive wayyyyy beyond my budget. But the hardest one is when they say, "I don't want anything for my birthday. I just want you to grow up to be a decent person." But I AM decent already. SIGH...not helping. So anyway...got to think fast about what to get him.

BTW, people think I look like Eva Longoria.

ehhh... that's a lie :p

almost forgot

To my mommy,

Happy mother's day. I woooof you!!!

Promises

Currently Listening to: I Believe in Love by Dixie Chicks

It's 1:35 AM and I am sleepy. My contacts are bothering me. Prolly have to take them out by now.


It's been a long day. It's been a long week. I swear I feel like I am in a roller coster ride. One day good, one day bad, one minute happy, one minute sad.

I am so happy that as of now only few people knows about this blog. I'd like to keep it that way. People are judgemental nowadays. I am too...in a way.

As of now, I am trying really hard of figuring out what is it that really bothering me. It seems to me that I get annoyed with simple little things. Gosh...I hate seeing myself that way. I guess I have soul searching to do. And the funny thing is, I don't have that much time...tick tock.

It's hard to just focus on fixing myself and separate myself from all of these commotions that are going on. Like I am still holding grudges against all of these people surrounding me. Not all of them, but a majority. I don't remember when did I become this bitter woman? I found out that the world is not meant to be painted with rainbow colors. BLEAH... I guess I just have to live with the fact that where I live is not a good place. Of course the other side of the argument is that no matter where you live, as long as you have found that peace within you...then you'll be okay. Easy to say, hard to do. Again, this grudge will kill me one day.

GOTTA STOP ALL OF THESE NONSENSE.

So I will make these promises to myself:

-I need to not pretend to be happy when I am not happy.

-I don't need to set my feelings aside to please other people. I need to appreciate my feelings more. I chose who I love.

-I need to learn that in fact it is ok to be happy. That there's nothing wrong with being in my own skin. That people will talk behind me whether I like it or not...afterall they are entitled to their own opinion. It doesn't determine who I am. In the end of the day, the only person who knows me is well..me.

-I don't need to bring the past if I want to have a future.

-I need to stop blaming other people or the bad situations. Because I know and trust myself better to not get in the harm's way.

-I need to stop with all these hustle and bustle and start to smell the roses. That as long as the sun is still shining, I am still living.

-I need to learn to forgive and forget. Let bygones be bygones.

-I need to stop writing dark entries. At least decrease it to twice a month...hehehhee...

I feel better now. Even better after these contact lenses are out.

I made a promise to myself. Locked it away deep down inside
Told my heart we'd wait it out
Swore we'd never compromise
Oh I'd rather be alone
Like I am tonight
Than settle for the kind of love
That fades before the morning light

Silence stared me in the face
And I finally heard its voice
It seemed to softly say
That in love you have a choice
Today i got the answer
And there's a world of truth behind it
Love is out there waiting somewhere
You just have to go and find it

I believe in love, I believe in love
A love that's real, love that's strong
Love that lives on and on
Yes I believe in love

today's a good day

Currently Listening to: Whenever You Call by Mariah Carey & Brian McKnight

I feel much much better today. Thank God for the strength to go through another day.

The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, I took a nap twice today...so all good.

I took the time to go to the gym today. I was contemplating of going but I miss my yoga class. I got there about 9:19 AM...kinda early so I went to Step class. Didn't sweat that much. I never had this instructor before so I was confused of the movements...didn't do too well there. Managed to look like an idiot spinning around the step. After that I went to Yoga class...never had that particular instructor either. Hey...where did all of them go? Yoga was weird today. She was playing up tempo songs so I wasn't relaxed at all. Worst of all, she dimmed the light so we were all confused. Anywho...enough complaining. I guess I just have to go to the gym again tomorrow to shed some more sweat. SIGH ... I decided to take a shower at the gym because I went through all the trouble packing up clean clothes. LOOOOOVE the shower!!! Sooo nice and I felt all squeeky clean afterwards. Love my gym!!!! I might try the sauna room next time I'm there. I just don't want to look like a loser being the only one in that sauna room. I'll bring a friend there next time. yup..yup...

This month is a good month for a lot of people. My cousin, Ery is getting married this weekend. My other cousin Mia is getting engaged..annnddd if that's not enough..my cousin Lizza is pregnant. SO HAPPY FOR THEM!!! I lost count of how many nieces and nephews I have up to date. Ohh... lots of people are graduating too. My bro will be graduating from high school the end of this month. And the PLN clan are graduating this weekend. Hip hip horray!!!!

I don't work as much nowadays. Only 20 hrs a week. I don't wanna work a lot anyways. I need some relaxing and clean up the house. There's a lot of things to be done. I know a lot of things are going to change from now on. It's scary for me, but I guess I just have to adapt and adjust. I figure why do I have to put up with all of these stress, you know. I have to learn to make myself calm and happy. The future is gonna be there whether I want it or not.

Oh.. one thing I also like to do is blog surfing. I notice the blogging world is rather quite nowadays. I guess people are busy. But I do enjoy escaping to other people's world...it's a therapeutic thing for me.

So, here's to another great day ahead!

Plan

Currently Listening to: You had a Bad Day by Daniel Powter

Life is not perfect.

Just when I think I am in control, I'm not. Just when I think I plan every step of the way, 99% takes a different turn...and I hate every single moment of it. I hate to adjust...it sucks. Lately it seems like when I thought everything was going smoothly, it went haywire. It's like I went to sleep thinking,"I can't wait for tomorrow to come." Then I woke up with bad news and I wished I had never woke up. It's that bad.

I just feel bad for my parents. They work hard to get to where they are now. And one evil person is just enough to ruin their dream.. and I am so mad. I am mad because I hate seeing them starting over from the beginning again. Where's justice when you need it?

With all of these commotions, I found myself feeling numb. It's like I thought I got everything figured out and then I just have to throw everything out the window. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I need a break. Why isn't there the end of the tunnel for me?

And I am trully blessed to have a partner in life who understands what I am going through and always there to lend a shoulder to cry on... to be there to make me laugh and to forget all of this sadness for awhile. He is truly the anchor of my life.

*SAD SIGH*

I just hope that God doesn't sleep on us and helps us go through this tough time.

Amin.

Recap of the Trip to the lake

This is a view of the muddy lake from the condo after 3 days of rain ;(

sunshine, watching the sunset from the balcony, jet skiing, play sand volleyball, swimming, do outdoorsy stuff, endless shopping, dry clothes, wear sandals, wear short tees, play miniature golf, walkin' along the lake.

Instead:

It rained the whole weekend, scary drive to get to the lake, witnessed a car flipped upside down on the side of the highway, called 911, wet clothes, slept most of the time, ate mommy's cooking and had indomie for breakfast, hurried shopping, didn't get a Coach bag, bought a pair of jeans that fit for $20, bought Jessica Simpson tee on sale for $7, bought Tommy Hilfiger blazer again on sale for $10.

Having tons of fun with my family,


priceless.

A Letter for Mbak Okke si Sepatu Merah

Currently Listening to: You are not Alone by Michael Jackson

Dear mbak,

Please forgive me for changing your template. As you can tell, the template "A Single Flower" has been change to a simple white template. I can't help it that I suck at html and failed to upload the pictures to my own server. I hope someday you'll find it in your heart to forgive me. On a lighter note, you are still credited as the creator of this template, because without you, I am nothing.

Oh...and please don't sue me ^_^'


Sincerely yours,

si gaptek